Laura Dawn Hunter (Meglin) - Online Memorial Website

Dear Lucy,

I so enjoyed talking to you tonight and sharing so much about each other. We find we've gone through a lot of the same struggles in life, but then, I guess that is life.

This last struggle we're facing, the loss of our children, is the biggest mountain we've ever had to climb. I hope, somehow, with our talking and sharing, we opened up a line of communication and friendship that will help as we stumble down this road together.

If there is anything I can do for you please just ask. I'll be available to talk if you need me anytime and I'm always checking my email.

Be extra patient and gentle with yourself as you travel this path of grief, it's so painful and so treacherous. It helps to have a hand to hold when the going gets rough. I'm offering you mine.

God Bless,
Love,
jane

I've been trying to post all day, but for some reason I couldn't. I finally e-mailed the site and now it is working.

Today marks one month since we lost Laura.

Well, the weirdest thing happened this morning. As you all know the crash that killed Laura happened about 10:10 AM central time. That would have been 8:10 my time. This morning I was sleeping and woke with a start. When I looked at the clock it said 8:08. I told Bill that I had just woken out of a sound sleep and he said he could tell. He said I started thrashing and kicking as I woke up. I told him that it was pretty much exactly a month ago that Laura was killed. He agreed it sounded pretty strange. Especially since I don't usually move around much in my sleep. I wasn't dreaming anything that I can remember, but my body must have "known" that it was exactly one month. What do you make of that?

I sure wish I could talk to Laura one more time. I have so many questions and I would love to tell her I love her and hear her say it to me.

Laura, I have to have faith that you know how everyone is and what has happened. I arrived back in Portland today. I'm glad to be home, but was sad to leave Kansas. I can't explain why. I should hate the whole state because you were killed there, but the people there were so kind and friendly. We went over to the Grist's for dinner Friday night. What nice, nice people. He is doing OK, so don't worry about that. Last night when we got home from taking Mary and Nicole to the airport, Zach called out for me. I went in his room and he was crying because he heard a song on the radio that you liked and it reminded him of you. I held him in my arms and he told me he missed you. I couldn't think of anything else to say except that I missed you too and it was OK to cry. I held him for a while longer and he finally went to sleep. Aaron and Zach both feel safe and loved. I know that would be important to you. I worry about Brad though. He is really suffering. You were his only parent and at 20 it is really hard on him. I have told him that Grandpa and I will be there for him, but I'm not sure it helps much. Be with him, Laura, he needs to feel you are still there even if he can't see you. The raw ache in our hearts continues, but we are all working really hard to figure out how to live without you. I will love you forever, my child. Mom

Laura, Things have been getting easier for all of us, from what it seems. I hope that makes you happier =]. We all miss you very much and love you even more. Do you remember that ring that my mom got you last year for your birthday, the one with the purple heart, well she gave it to me. I plan on getting a sterling silver necklace and putting the ring on it so i can wear it all the time cause its kinda big for my finger, but i will cherish it forever. I also want you to know nights with Zach have been getting easier, and Aaron, Aaron has been the strongest out of all of us about it, but i know he misses you. Well we took the boys to the movies to see Shrek The Third they loved it and we let Zach hold the popcorn like you always let him =]. In a few days I'm flying to Illinois to live with Uncle Jim and go to school there so i can get a really good education, then next spring my mom is moving there if Kansa lets her. Well I miss you alot and love you even more I have to go to bed to get ready for school to start.
I Love You Laura!!!!!!!!!!!!!

There are no words that can describe how this untimely passing is affecting all of us. I wish, from the bottom of my heart, that something could be done to change this. My condolences to you (Jim) and your Family. To the Boy's, be strong and never forget how much Love there is for you and your Mom. You are all in my prayers.

But today has been hurting me more than most laura i miss you so much. Your sons misss you even more its so hard at night sometimes when zach crys and screams "I MISS MY MOM" and then tells you he is lonely now he doesnt have his mom or that he only had nine years with her and wanted more. He is hurting so bad and it kills me unbelieveably to point where i cry everytime i think of you. I just dont understand why did you have to go now or even at all. I just wish you would have worn that seat belt you might still be here today. Its just it hurts some much everything that i do reminds me of you like today when i was watching tv on your old tv i was thinking of when you got it me and all the kidds were playing in th box of it at your house we had such a good time and you were so proud that my mom convencied you to buy it. she misses you alot too shes very lost without you and she hurts so much. Today we went to your house and i drove and it reminded me of the time when i was so angery my parents made me move to kansas that you and jim took me out and let me drive on the gravel road with your truck and then you took me out to sonics and got me a banana milkshake and said "drinnk it before we get back" haha we both knew why too. You were so giveing to me and i just wish i apreshiated it more now. I know you loved me and i hope you know i loved you. I remember the last time we talked on the phone we talked for almost an hour about how life was and when we were gonna see eachother again and about the boys and thier grades and how they were. you told me you got horses and that you planted your tomato field you were so proud of how well you were doing it made me so happy to hear you so happy if only i would have known. we talked about how you wanted to move back to washington because you missed it and how both my dad and jim were stubborn old men haha =]
then i told you that you should go over to my moms house alone and talk to her alone and im so glad you did it laura i didnt think you actually would and im so GLAD you did. It ment alot to you my mom me and brad that you guys were talking again. laura i miss you so much its unbelieveable i never knew i could hurt and miss and care this much till now i just want you to know i love you forever and for always. i love you laura you'll be in my heart forever and thats a promise

Laura,
I miss you SO MUCH today..I started my day crying cuz I miss you so much!!!!!!!!!!!! I would give up everything I have to just have you back! You were always there for me when I needed you..no matter where you were you always let me come be with you. I loved that about our relationship we had... Now who can I turn to when I need you? You're not here. I just want you back!!!!!! This is so hard on me...not that I have your boys now, I would take them anytime but that I don't have you. Every time I needed you, you were there...I need you to guide me now from above. I know your watching...and I know your my angel...I hope your listening everytime I talk to you..yes I know it's mostly been from the toilet or the shower...I just wish there was more time. I love you with all my heart and I will always love the boys like they are my own..just as much as I love our girls...Gaige looks so much like you I wish now I had named her Laura Dawn after you...But you had decided on her middle name being LaDawn after you...My girls are your girls too. They love you like a mom. All our kids have always felt like they had 2 moms and I'm so proud of that. I Love You Laura and I alway will!

My heart is still in pain. I never knew this would be so bad. But, I am reminded of the Garth Brooks song "The Dance". I could have missed the pain, but I'd have had to miss the dance.
If they had told be before you were conceived that I would only have you for 39 years, I would have gladly accepted even knowing we would have you for such a short time.
I wouldn't be having this pain, but I would have missed all the joy you brought to me. I thank you, my Laura, for the gift of your life.

(MAY GOD BLESS YOU ALL )

I AM WAITING ON YOU

May God's Hands be on your shoulder
as you grow ill or much older
To know that you are never alone
One day He will take you Home
We may feel sad or even depressed
Because we can't do as all the rest
Just remember, my sweet friend
Everything must come to an end
Even in our suffering and our pain
We know we will never be the same
Never give up ! Just do what you must
Just give it to God, in Him place your trust
Be Happy that He has faith in you
He has much more for you to do
Show the world and the people everywhere
It is the Heart that we must take good care
A loving heart is worth more than gold
It reaches into your very soul
No matter the pain we go thru
Giving a smile is something you can do
When you smile, it comes back to you
So one day LAURA DAWN and JESUS awaits
sitting There at heaven's gates